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Apr. 19th, 2007 | 01:40 pm
location: school
mood: depressed depressed

i cant take it anymore...
im getting surgery tomm...
im kinda nervous
i fell in love with this boy
but he only wants my body
that is really sad
i mean i wasnt suppose to fall for him
and then i did
i cant take it
nothing is going right
thats not evern the worst of it


I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
I JUST DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE!!!



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Apr. 1st, 2007 | 08:50 am
mood: crazy crazy

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!
~17 baby~

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Mar. 10th, 2007 | 11:26 am
location: home
mood: depressed depressed

LIFE IS KINDA SUCKING LATELY!!!!!

i no people care but i cant help but give up...
i dont care about anything anymore...
do what you want i dont care...
i no people care about me and i love my friends so i still care about them...
but i really cant take life anymore...
what ever happens happenens!


i have a party tonight and then im goin to a club...
hopfully it will be fun
with my depresion...
i hope i can just forget it all for a night
cause i no it just wont go away!


aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh...i just dont no what to do anymore!!!!

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Mar. 3rd, 2007 | 10:24 pm
location: home
mood: disappointed disappointed
music: bells of the cats

life is ok
like is bad
life is good
but hey thats life!

so i gotr staked by some stupid guys in my car...it was mad scary!

 I GOT MY OLD FRIENDS BACK!!!!!!!!!! that makes me really happy! it made me realize how im middle school i was really stupid....and i have changed a lot and so have they! and that old friends can come back and they can be friends with the new ones too....there is no limit to the amount of friends a person can have!!! so dont every forget the friends u had and always make new ones!

school had been sucking but hey what else is new...lol...

i love driving...its now like my life!

and by the way i just wanna thank everyone...and exsp those certain people and u no who u r...for helping me through everything that happens....and not just dropping me like its hot...lol...and i mean it


I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

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Feb. 11th, 2007 | 05:54 pm
location: home
mood: jealous jealous

this weekend was ok

good and bad

fri was fucking awsome!!!!
TRIPOD LOVE!!!

sat was good then bad then good again!!!
My parents are asses
i went shopping
saw katey's sister rebecca
WENT TO LILA SWEET 16
met this guy
i like him
but so does katey
she is more important to me then any guy so i guess what ever happens happens
then i slept over kateys


sun was ok
did not get much sleep
so im tired
i got picked on which means they like me :)
lol
then i went home
went to look for a car
and now im doing this bored
and tired still



PEACE OUT BEECHES!

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Feb. 6th, 2007 | 07:46 am
location: school
mood: excited excited
music: talking

I PASSED MY ROAD TEST!!! :)

me and katey went driving around new city yesterday! 
it was great!!!
driving is so much fun
but it makes you so tired!
and i dont have to wait for anyone to drive me or pick me up
im in school now and i got my lil sticker thingy
ya
its so cold outside!
my addness kicking in
ya so now im bored
im gonna go 


PEACE AND LOVE!!!<3

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Feb. 4th, 2007 | 06:09 pm
location: home
mood: cheerful cheerful

TOMMARROW!!!

starting to get nervous...but im sure ill do fine!!!lol


WISH ME LUCK!!!!

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Jan. 28th, 2007 | 10:56 pm
location: home
mood: okay okay
music: painless-mae

WINTER TRACK IS OVER!!!:( / :)
SPRING TRACK IS COMING!

yesterday was counties!!!
I DID REALLY GOOD!
I GOT A PB!!!
26-9
im also in third place out of all the girl throwers in south!
i was so happy
i wanted 30 but what ever
becca did amazing!!
29-9 she almost got 30....becca is a beast...lol...MAN ARM!
its over now...and im kinda sad
i love track
its like my life now!
8 more days until freedom!!!
im amsing lol...
and ya second semester is tomm and i need to do good
im gonna try and work again
put everthing aside
ya so i gotta pee now
so im leaving with this thought!

LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW!! lol :)

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Jan. 24th, 2007 | 10:05 am
location: home EW!
mood: sad sad
music: panic attak by finger eleven

4 down and 1 to go!!!!

im off tommarrow...
im tired...
and right now im really really bored 
i have to get dressed to leave soon
arg...
i dont wanna take anymore tests
they suck so bad...lol...

ok well thats all...
im not gonna start with the rest of my life cause right now thats sucking to!

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Jan. 22nd, 2007 | 07:14 pm
location: Katey's house
mood: cheerful cheerful
music: disney

3 down and 2 to go!

in a really good mood again...i dont no whats going on with that but im happy!


ya thats it!

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Jan. 21st, 2007 | 11:57 am
location: Katey's house
mood: ecstatic ecstatic
music: nada

im in a really good mood!!!!! :)

~im at Katey's house...thats nothing new...
~iv been here all weekend!
~she is at work right now but im still here
~HELL I LIVE HERE!!!lol
~i had a meet on fri and i did ok but not my best
~Katey did amazing! she got 25-1
~a lot of throwers PBed and in case you dont no....that is personal best!
~i have not been home 4 three days now!!! ITS GREAT!!!!!!
~test start tomm and im only off one day...thurs
~i have practice everyday!
~i have 3 tests tomm and im gonna bug!
~i broke up with joe
~and ya thats about it...


LIFE IS OK WHEN YOU JUST STOP AND TAKE A BREATH!<3

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Jan. 1st, 2007 | 09:24 pm
location: home
mood: crazy crazy
music: quiet!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!


07 is here and im hoping its gonna be a good one
last year fucking sucked so ya
i fucking had a blast yeasterday
and that is a thanx to everyone that was there wit me


ITS 07 BEECHES!!!
AND IM READY TO PARTY!
BALLN'

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Dec. 28th, 2006 | 06:25 pm
location: home
mood: satisfied satisfied
music: nada

~vacation has been going good
~maybe bacause i have not been home....
~Joe is a fucking awsome guy!
~i have been hanging out with him a lot
~i celebrated christmas
~and got some good ass gifts
~i have to starting eating right because im not eating enough
~and i think im starting to gain back the weight i lost
~track is sucking
~im starting to suck at throwing
~i dont no what to do wit that
~i thought of quitting
~katey is fucking awsome!!!
~i have been living at her house
~i keep hurting myself
~i think im done now



3 FUCKING DAYS TILL A NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!


FUCK YA!!!
IM READY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





BEECHES!!!:)

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Dec. 24th, 2006 | 04:43 pm

*MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!*

AT KATEYS FOR WEEKEND.
LATER PEOPLES.


ITS ALMOST OVER!!!
IM READY FOR A FUCKING NEW YEAR!!!

BITCHES

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Dec. 22nd, 2006 | 06:49 am
mood: happy happy

LAST DAY!!!!

thank g-d cause i really need a long break!

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Dec. 17th, 2006 | 06:08 pm
mood: tired tired

this week end was fun!!!!

i really got no sleep but what ever
i basically spent the weekend at my 2ed house(katey's)
it was awsome
i went to beccas sweet 16
it was awsome
i saw joe
i saw leah
i got to decorate a christmas tree

and ya it was just awsome!!!!!!!!

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Dec. 12th, 2006 | 08:29 pm
mood: depressed depressed

my dad broke my door lock cause he was mad
school sucks
to much work 
i miss them so much
my feeling are hidden inside and i dont no how to get them out
and by out i mean no longer with me
i have not been eating as i should be
my parents dont feed me and i dont have the money to buy things
katey feeds me...but it isnt enough...
im not losing weight 
im  gaining it back
i went on a scale and wow!
i have a bf 
and he is great!
i dont no what i do without my friends
prob kill myself


BUT I FOUND OUT PEOPLE CARE!!


i love the family!!!!(track)

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Dec. 5th, 2006 | 03:16 pm
mood: depressed depressed

LIFE FUCKING SUCKS!!!
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!
THE DRAMA!!!
THE LIFES!!!!
I JUST CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
I DONT NO WHAT TO DO!!!
I HATE BEING DEPRESSED!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Nov. 30th, 2006 | 12:11 pm
mood: depressed depressed

my life is falling apart
evrything is happening at once
my mind is going to explode
ok so where should i start
my grades are falling
my grandma is is the hospital
and im scared 
i cant looose another one i care for
my parents hate me right now
we are always getting into fights
mostly about school
my dad wants to move out cause he cant take it anymore
he might want a devorse
i feel like it is my fault
my X boyfriend is harassing me
and he had to bring katey into it
he wants pat to meet him on fri for a fight at the mall
he is so stupid
i no he is upset but this isnt the way to show it
and then he goes to some of my other friends o i still care for her
i would never want to hurt her
i just want her to be happy
thats all bullshit!!!!
he has threatened to kill me
i told the cop at the school but not all of it yet
someone imed me 
i think it might have been my X
he was callling me fat and ugly and a les
my self esteem is now brought down like no other
i cant handle it all anymore
i need a break!
i need to get away to a happy place!
mabe with some friends...idk

but there are a few good things....
i qualified in tomarrows meet
3 boys and 3 girls
and i made it
i was surprised
im kinda nervous
but ill be ok
and im home from school right now
because i need a day to just think!



well ill talk to you all later!bye

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Nov. 23rd, 2006 | 08:04 pm
mood: gloomy gloomy

HAPPY TURKY DAY!!!

ok so crew is over
idk if im doing it again
so much drama been going on
it sucks balls
my close friends lie
but what ever
iv been crying a lot
i hate having family over
its nice to have a break from school
this was the first holiday without him : (
i miss him still and prob always will
my X wont leave me alone
he told me he still likes me
i dont no what i feel
iv been so bipolar!!!
and i dont no y
track is fun
i hurt myself but i can still run! : )
im loving the new room
but the cell phone well not so much
but i got texts back and well i love that
well thats all i can think of to say right now
but ya
ill be back 
bi

YOU DONT REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE UNTIL ITS GONE!!!

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